Pissin' Bush

That is my roommate Gary. The one that I have been working out with. I tried to go for the whole Puddle of Mudd "Come Clean" album cover, but he refused to pull his pants down. Actually to be honest, he didn't want me to take a picture at all. He doesn't want Ryan to know that he pisses on that bush. Notice how all the other bushes have flowers? That is the designated piss bush. If you don't know who Ryan is, he is the fella that owns the house. If something goes wrong he try's to blame it on someone, even if it isn't their fault. He can be quite a douche.

It has been too long since my last post. A lot has happened. Well, not really. I have just been working and going to school. I did take smoking back up. I realized something about my non-smoking episode, I only quit smoking for Gary. I love smoking, and I really don't want to quit. I only quit for Gary because he asked me too. Since I am not getting sex from him, it is pointless for me to not smoke for him. I guess. I don't know. Not smoking is the better thing to do, but it is pointless to quit for the wrong reasons. Now if Gary was a girl and I was getting some poon, then that would be a good reason to quit. But I'm not and it isn't, so I quit pretending to want to be a non-smoker. I realized this last Saturday. Gary and I went to the casino. It was the first time that I have ever been to a casino. While we were there, we were sitting in the bar, and there were a few honies there. They were all smoking. I just couldn't handle it anymore. So I bought a pack, and have been smoking ever since. Granted, I cannot afford it, but like an alcoholic, I will find a way.

Now, about my night at the casino. It was pretty fun. I went with the intention of spending 40 bucks and left with 63. All of which was won on the very last machine that I played. Gary and I were on the way so that Gary could go cash out, and I still had a 20. As we were walking past the a set of machines that didn't have anyone on them, I slipped the 20 in. Gary was all like, "Jared!!" Then I pushed a button. My amount went down from 20 to 10. Then I pushed the button again, and it kept going up and up until it landed on 63. Then it was time to go. A good night at the casino.

School has been good, even though I was late this morning. It is all good. I was still was able to get all of my work done in class, even that of which I missed that the teach put up on the board. I'm not sure what I am getting in this class, concidering that my teach hasn't given us our grades yet, but I am getting a perfect 100 in my comp II class. That is good. I think that I am doing weill in all of my classes. Speaking of classes, I need to download an article on motherboards tonight. It is do in the morning. Shit I forgot.

Well I am going to get on it. I need to get some sleep tonight anyways. I am quite tired.

Week Two

Well here it is, the second week of school. For some reason today, I have woken up at 6 a.m. God am I tired and I had no hope for going back to sleep, so I figured that I would make a post before Gary gets up and we get to work out.

As I mentioned in my last post, my first class was Comp II. It is a b.s. writing class where I have to write essays on other essays. Well, I just finished my last essay for today's class right before I went to bed last night (around 12:30 a.m.). That article had me so angry. It was about all the school shooting sprees from back in the '97-'98 school year. It did not include the Columbine shooting spree, because it was written before that, but it had all the others. Well anyways, the author John Ellis, had it out for the media (TV and the movies). He was blaming all of those shootings on TV and movies. He was saying that they desensitized children to the point that shooting sprees were fine and that if we didn't do something about the violence in movies and on TV that we might as well give up a civilized society. Like it is 100% the fault of movies and TV for these children to kill other kids. Fuck that guy. Those kids did not do what they did because of movies. They were seriously troubled kids that needed help that they did not receive. Anyways, it angered me. Angered me so badly that every time I would sit down to write my essays over this article, I would get so flustered. Flustered to the point where I was shaking and could not think straight. Why does this article bother me so much? I don't know. Maybe it is just because it was written by a fucking dolt that cannot see the truth and just bends things to fit in his own little and narrow sighted mind. Oh well, its over.

Well it is time to get up. Gary and I have to go lift some weights before we both have to scoot out of here before 8:30. I will try and get another post in today before I have to log into work. That may not happen, but I will promise you this, I will not be another week before posting. I have had a hectic week.

Delay

Sorry about the delay in my posting, I have been a bit busy these past few days. As you know, I had my first class yesterday. It was pretty good. I like my teach even though I think he is a homosexual. There is nothing wrong with homosexuals, but he seems like the kind that can be creepy. His humor makes up for the almost creepy vibe. It's a composition class, so that means I get to write. Yay. Too bad I cannot just write about things that I want to write about, but about stupid essays that other people wrote about topics I care nothing about with opinions that iritate me. Oh well. I will get over it and hopefully become a better writer.

Tomorrow is problem solving. It's a math class (I think). Hopefully it will be a breeze. I need to get thru a few bullshit classes before I get to the fun ones. Saturday is Intro to Personal Computers. It is a requirement for eveyone who goes there. I am sure I know a lot about personal computers, but there has to be some that I am going to learn in that class. After all, almost everything that I do know about pc's is self-taught. I am actually looking forward to that class. Really.

As for my working out these past couple of days... It's been going quite well. I have been keeping up with the work-outs and whatnot, but I have not been losing weight. I've been gaining it instead. I am up to a whopping 197lbs! It's pissing me off. It is almost as if I am doing all this working out for nothing. But I do feel healthier. I am scheduled to run 2 miles tomorrow morning with Gary. I am not sure how that is going to workout, but hopefully everything will be well. I think my lungs will be able to handle it. I have not smoked at all this week, and not including my litttle misshap over the weekend, it will be 3 weeks saturday that I have quit. The cravings are going down, but I still really want to smoke, if just to have something to do. I cannot wait until that passes as well. I have a feeling that it will never pass.

I am currently at work. I hate my job, hince why I am in school. I am getting sick and tired of all of these idiots that call in and think that they know better than I do. If you do, then DON'T CALL ME!. But thats just a pet peave. I really do not like dealing with the public, and I hate dolts. In my call center, we only deal with the bottom 10% of the AT&T users. In other words, I deal with all the idiots and the people that think that they know better than anyone else. I rarely get outage calls. It is these people that are driving me to smoke. I know that is a lie, since I have been smoking for 17 years and I have only been at this job for not even a year (my one year is at the end of the month), but it is making not smoking even harder. Today though, I am alright.

Anxiety

It is 11:19 Monday night. Tomorrow is my first day of class. I am more anxious than I thought that I would be. I had made a goal to get my room clean before Class started. Well, it's not clean, but at least I can see the carpet and my desk. Two things I have not seen in here for a very, very long time. I need to go to sleep so that I can be up with Gary and lifting weights by 7 a.m. and be done by 8 a.m. We both need to be showered and out of the door no later than 8:20 a.m. or so, so we need to be on the ball in the morning. I cannot go to bed yet. I still have to do my laundry. I still have a load that needs to go into the wash. But I suppose that I can throw them into the dryer in the morning.

I am feeling a bit hypocritical. If you all have been reading this post from the beginning, you would know that I started this blog with a strong passion about being the only person in this house that was doing the dishes and that I was not going to continue being the only one and that I was refusing to do the dishes until someone else did them. It went for quite awhile with no one doing the dishes. Well since then, I did the dishes the following day, and pretty much everyone else has pitched in doing the dishes. I did the the following day, and not since. I was bitching because no one was doing the dishes, and I just quit doing them. Well today they were quite gross, and I was feeling bad about not doing them, so I did them. But I didn't clean the kitchen. It is a mess. I however did not make the mess that is in there. I have not cooked anything in forever, and that stove is fucking terrible. I will probably go clean it here in a bit because I have to burn a little bit of time before I can switch around the clothes, but damn, I live with some really disgusting people. I mean everyone that lives here is super cool, but we're all a bit slobby, accept for Gary, he still has the military neatness in him. I was a slob even when I was in the military.

I don't know when I will be able to make my next post, but I will try to get one posted before I start work tomorrow. Ill let y'all know how school was. Hopefully it will be great. G'night all.

Update

So, as I posted before, I was supposed to have a big day the other day. I had a lot of things planned, most of which did not, but that's alright. I did workout, but not as muchg as I had planned. Oh well. Did not get new running shoes, but I did get a haircut and we did go to Pacific Seafood Buffet. That place is so amazing. If you live in the area, and like seafood or shusi, I highly recomend the joint. If you need directions, just click on the banner that I posted in the Mine: Big Day.

I have been majorly slacking in my excercising and in my non-smoking. Over the weekend, I broke down. I bought a pack, but they were not for me. They were for a friend who came over to our house to drink his sorrows away. He was just shitcanned and needed to drink. I got really drunk as well. I wound up smoking quite a bit that night. Hopefully I got it out of my system. I have been quite snippy lately.

And then yesterday, Gary and I were supposed to do some cardio. We went to the public pool instead. They have an awesome diving board there. I had quite a bit of fun, until at least this one little boy pissed me off. I'm here just having loads of fun jumping off of the high dive, very badly mind you, but I did not care. It was just good fun. Granted I was landing badly (I am not sure if you call it landing, or splashing but you get my drift), my entrance to the surface of the water was very bad. It didn't hurt though. But this one little shit kept yelling at me. "Do a slow summersult, like that guy" who was apparently one of his friends. This little fuck wasn't even going off of the high-dive. Hell, he was holding onto the edge in the 5ft section of the pool. But this heckler would not shut-the-fuck-up. So I just quit diving. It was either that or smash a 14-year-old's face in. I am still debating on which was the best choice.

This morning, we did finally work out, and Gary has finaly decided that he is going to quit smoking. I doubt that it will stick. He is the one that got me to quit smoking, we were to quit together. I have stuck to my guns, with a few minor acceptions, but for the most part, I have been smoke free for the better part of 3 weeks now. 3 weeks today that is. But I did tell him that if he continues to smoke, that I probably will take up smoking again. I hope that I don't, but I think that was just some ensentive for him to quit. We're supposed to be each other's backbones, and mine is getting weak.

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Self portrait gone wrong.

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Yay. So i am totally drunk right now. I tried to moble upload a pic of gary but it would not upload for some reason. Oh well here it is. I will add it to facebook from here though. I love u all.

Big Day

Well, today I did not want to get up. I did though, and before Gary. I was waiting on him to lift today. We have decided not to follow the P90X program to a 'T' because well, we don't have free weights. So we are sticking with the Bowflex on the lifting days. I'm lifting conciderably more than what I had started out with. Also today, Nena wants to do the Yoga with me and Erin wants to do some cardio with me. Which I really need to do both. It seems to me that I am doing way too much lifting and not nearly enough cardio that I need to do. I want to lose my fat stomach, not just get big arms.

Also I need to get a hair cut today. We all are going to make a family trip out of that. We all need haircuts. Also I need to buy some running shoes. If I am going to start running, I need a pair of non-skate shoes. That's all I wear. Lately I have been just getting the Wal-Mart brand skate shoes. But I like them. These are the current shoes that I wear. I really like them accept that they are a bit tight. They didn't have the size that I needed. If you don't like them, well at least I am the one that gets to wear them. The one thing about skate shoes is that they are not good for running. Granted they are just fine for running a few steps at a time, just long enough to jump on a moving board, but if you try running in them for distance, they will fall off or be really uncomfortable. In my case, they would fall off.

So, after we go get hour hair cuts, we are going to go out to this bomb-ass seafood buffet. I don't like seafood, but this place has the most amazing sushi. I'm not big on fish, unless you leave it raw and put it on a chunk of cooked rice.

That is the place, and it is so amazing. So if you're ever in Chandler, AZ, and want a kick-ass place for some seafood and sushi, go to Pacific. You will not regret it.

So that's my day. Lots of things to do, but I think that I'm going to start off with a nap. Yeah, that sounds good.

Disappointment

This morning I was to do the Yoga protion of the week for the P90X. I did not get up at 7. When I did finally get up, Gary was already off for work. But I am thinking that he had to leave early for work and was unable to do the Yoga this morning, but that just means that he is going to do it this afternoon. So anyways, I tried doing it by myself. I am a big boy afterall. Well too big a boy that is. Turns out, I am too big for Yoga. I kept falling over and my stomach kept getting in the way. The Yoga work-out is an hour and a half long. I made it almost 30 minutes. I am so disappointed in myself for not finishing.

Another Object for my disappointment is on the way to work yesterday, I had a smoke. The first in 2 and a half weeks, but it was still a smoke. Hopefully I will not go back down that path. I am a quiter, I just don't want to be a quiter at quiting.

Fun times

Last night, I took a buddy home after work. Hadn't planned on staying, but he invited me in for a beer. Well, that turned into two beers, and then a trip to the bar, which turned into several more. We played some pool. I played very poorly. I was ashamed to say that I have a pool table at my house, I played that badly. Granted, I am used to my table, which is by no means regulation in any way, it's more of a mutt-sized. I like it. Then we went back to his place and listened to music and ate some food, which was good because I still had to drive home. I was by no means drunk, mind you, but it was very late by the time that I left. The sun was starting to rise. It was about 4:30 when I got home, which gave me about 2 and a half hours to sleep before P90X. I left a note for Gary that he was probably going to have to wake me.

So, I wake up, feeling great. The sun was shining, the birds were chirping. It was going to be a great day. But it seemed like it was the middle of the day. So I looked at my clock. It was only 6:40. Then it hit me. The lack of sleep. The beers from the night before. It felt like a ton of bricks, and I was miserable. I fell back asleep almost instantly. It took Gary a couple of attempts to actually wake me. But I got up.

This morning's workout wasn't so bad. They seem to be getting easier, but in no means does that mean that they are easy. I think that I am just getting used to actually working out, and that I am getting stronger. Since some of the workout today was dealing with a lot of weights, free weights that is, and we don't have any free weights, we decided to cut the video short and use the Bowflex instead. Well we kind of had to. I felt quite proud of myself. One of the exercises that we did, I was able to start out with what I maxed out on last week, and went up from there. I am definitely getting stronger.

This is starting to pay off. I have more energy during the day, and I am breathing better. I think that is also because of the whole non-smoking as well, but yeah. I really don't know how much longer that I can last on that. We will see.

Feel the Burn

This morning I got to do that first P90X video that totally kicked my ass last week, or was it the week before? I don't remember, the first video that I did, the one that was in the post Mine: P90-Fuck me , yeah that one. It didn't seem nearly has hard, or maybe I just did not put in as much effort as before because Gary wasn't there. You see, he had to go to work early today and did not have time to work out. He is still going to do the work out, but it won't be until this afternoon.

I have not lost anymore weight yet, but while working out I was looking in the mirror, (we have a wall in our workout room that is essentially one big mirror), and it looks like my gut fat is hanging lower. I know, that's really disgusting, but I think that this routine is starting to do its job.

If you haven't noticed I have put a link to the P90X website on this page. I think that it is important to have it there since I have been talking about it so much lately. Now if anyone has any questions about the program, there is a direct link. On the site, you can purchase the program, sign up for the newsletter, there is even a chat forum so that you can ask any questions or get help form other P90X users. Also the nutrition guide is there.

Monday

Today is Monday. The first day of the P90X routine. Today we did a bunch of push-ups and pull-ups, although I cannot do a single pull-up. Instead I did a similar exercise on the Bowflex machine. We were also supposed to do this ab workout, which Gary decided not to do at this time because he was just half-assing it because it was quite beat from the hour long upper body routine. He promised that he would do it later. I on the other hand will have to do it in a little bit. I am not sure that I will be able to accomplish this task. I have done this particular video before, it is only about 15 minutes or so, but most of the exercises I can barely do because of my massive gut. I don't want to focus too much on abs until I lose some of my gut, otherwise it will make my stomach look bigger.

I am not losing much weight yet, but that is coming. My legs are feeling stronger and my butt is shaping up nicely, although you cannot tell from the pants that I wear. Oh well, at least I know that it is. It used to be quite flat and not shapely at all. It is starting to round out and become more firm, yet it is still soft. Which is good. After all, who wants to sit on a rock every time that they sit down? Not me I say.

As my body starts to take on a better shape, I will be posting pics of it here. At present, I do not look much better than my first pics that I have posted. That will change with time. Hopefully not too much time, otherwise it will indicate that I am slacking in my workout and basically wasting my time. And that is no good.

Now that I am getting up at 7:30 in the morning, I have a bunch of time to do some much needed cleaning. I need to get my room presentable. Well I don't need do, but I am tired of living like a slob. I have for the majority of my life. I think I will also utilize this time to clean the house. Yes it did get cleaned the other day, but like I have said before, I do live with a bunch of slobs, and with as many people that I live with, it does get quite messy very fast. Hell, we haven't even cleaned up from when we had that "party" on Friday night. Oops. I am doing some much needed laundry right now, including my sheets. I don't think that I have washed them since I have moved in here. Yes, I know, that's disgusting. Like I have said before, I am a lazy slob.

Well, I suppose I should get back to cleaning up. I have much to do. I would also like to work on my story today, but there is much cleaning to be done and I do need to do that other video. To be honest, I think I would rather take a shower and then a nap. I did not get much sleep last night. I think that I actually fell asleep around 2:30 or so. Not much sleep for the amount of exercise that I did this morning. I think that I am NOT going to do that other video but I will take the trash out and pick up the game room (mostly just the beer bottles from the party on Friday), take a shower and put my clothes in the drier and take a nap. I want my room clean before I start school, and that means that I have another week before it needs to be done. That sounds like a plan to me.